How’s life? In a word life is Grey, dim yet not extinguished. It started on a sunny summer day at about noon. When mom was crying in pain and dad was teasing her. Followed by disappointment, it was a girl.
I’m living a life where New York does not get destroyed nor does captain America come and save it. Wonder woman only exists in fairy tales. Black Panther is no longer a king of Uganda. Ironman only exists as a toy and spiderman is still a fantasy. Humans are still in search of the spider which bit him.
No pirates are fighting and searching for the treasure, ‘one piece’. A boring life with no Jutsu and shurikens to go on a mission. Being cursed on an island and starting an adventure remains a far stretched dream.
I am living a life where I do not meet a bloodthirsty yet gracious and kind vampire. Falling in love with him and never letting him go is still limited to my creativity. No one comes and says, you have bewitched my body, soul and my entire being unironically so I could fall for him.
Life is not as exciting as in the movies, no superpowers exist. But life’s excitement is not extinguished. Here people do not fight to take over a city or empire. The real fun lies in the sight when street vendor's fight over a customer, unconsciously side staring at each other when they hear a louder voice calling for customers.
Time ticks away as I cross my fingers wishing I could conserve every bit of my energy. It hurts when I have to fade my voice out while I am telling a story and realize no one really cared. Sometimes there's this urge to scream out what I mean and what should not be forced on me. Still, my voice gets lost before it reaches other people.
My grey life has its beauty and drawbacks. But I often see and envy people living a pink and colourful life. Who goes around enjoying what's around instead of daydreaming about what could be. A colourful life for me is hard to maintain. Grey life, the composition of dark and light, not too dark yet not too light nor colourful, just mild. A life that lingers on a hope that one day, it will be as I dreamed.
One day, I’ll defeat the Thanos inside me, uphold the curse that imprisons my heart. Then, go around the world. Meet tons of new people, learn new values and go on and on making my life itself an adventure.
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